Brian
From Cancer To The Cross
02-07-26 WORK IN PROGRESS - -BRIAN TO EDIT SOON - -
At 38 years old I was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma Stage 4-B.
I had been having night sweats, sharp pains inside, in addition to itching and scratching till it drew blood. I blamed the air condition, my diet, and my dry skin.
By that time I had developed and was showing relatives and others my swollen lymph nodes. I was able to see and feel them, but decided it was no big deal. I was sometimes having labored breathing, fainting spells, and blamed it on smoking and getting older.
3/10 odds of living up to 5 years even if the treatments worked…
I am obviously stubborn, and by the time I went to the doctor so that they could biopsy me and diagnose me, they looked at me and told me that I had perhaps days or maybe weeks to live before something would swell up too big and cut off an organ or something else. My oncologist said ‘Be here Monday, and we hope you make it until then.
I was given 30% odds at living up to 5 years. I was informed that the treatments could harm me in many ways, and that I would never have children. This didn’t help my depression.
At first I foolishly decided not to do any treatments and I would just die.
My friends and family didn’t understand when I started saying “no” and could not understand that my reaction was more to do with depression than with cancer. I was often frustrated by the evil in this world and I was burned out of it. When I told my mom and dad that I just wanted to be allowed to die, it was only their heartbreak that convinced me to re-think my decision.
I knew by the looks on their faces that leaving them in this world to bury their child was not right either. It would be just one more evil in this world that they would have to deal with. Perhaps the most selfless thing I ever will do was to humbly agree to get in the chair for chemotherapy for their sake..
My family were crushed, so I decided to try and live for them.
I knew by the looks on their faces that leaving them in this world to bury their child was not right either. It would be just one more evil in this world that they would have to deal with. I realized that if their pain & suffering truly mattered to me, then I was being selfish by not fighting to live for them. Perhaps the most selfless thing I ever will do was to humbly agree to get in the chair for chemotherapy for their sake..
I realized that others are worth fighting for more than myself.
[John 15:13 KJV] Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.
Christen C.
Reserved for Christen C.
[John 4:7-29 KJV] There cometh a woman of Samaria to draw water: Jesus saith unto her, Give me to drink. (For his disciples were gone away unto the city to buy meat.) Then saith the woman of Samaria unto him, How is it that thou, being a Jew, askest drink of me, which am a woman of Samaria? for the Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans. Jesus answered and said unto her, If thou knewest the gift of God, and who it is that saith to thee, Give me to drink; thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given thee living water. The woman saith unto him, Sir, thou hast nothing to draw with, and the well is deep: from whence then hast thou that living water? Art thou greater than our father Jacob, which gave us the well, and drank thereof himself, and his children, and his cattle? Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life. The woman saith unto him, Sir, give me this water, that I thirst not, neither come hither to draw. Jesus saith unto her, Go, call thy husband, and come hither. The woman answered and said, I have no husband. Jesus said unto her, Thou hast well said, I have no husband: For thou hast had five husbands; and he whom thou now hast is not thy husband: in that saidst thou truly. The woman saith unto him, Sir, I perceive that thou art a prophet. Our fathers worshipped in this mountain; and ye say, that in Jerusalem is the place where men ought to worship. Jesus saith unto her, Woman, believe me, the hour cometh, when ye shall neither in this mountain, nor yet at Jerusalem, worship the Father. Ye worship ye know not what: we know what we worship: for salvation is of the Jews. But the hour cometh, and now is, when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father seeketh such to worship him. God [is] a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship [him] in spirit and in truth. The woman saith unto him, I know that Messias cometh, which is called Christ: when he is come, he will tell us all things. Jesus saith unto her, I that speak unto thee am [he]. And upon this came his disciples, and marvelled that he talked with the woman: yet no man said, What seekest thou? or, Why talkest thou with her? The woman then left her waterpot, and went her way into the city, and saith to the men, Come, see a man, which told me all things that ever I did: is not this the Christ?
Give your life to Jesus. He will do better with it anyways.
